I've got friends who, who will help me pull through.

I love my friends.

I love being appreciated.

I love As Cities Burn.

I love birthday cake.

I love two bottles of POM.

I love not having to say I'm sixteen anymore.

April 25, 2007

Iowa City, IA @ The Picador

As Cities Burn, Cool Hand Luke, Olympia

Waterloo, IA
@ Pepsi Pavillion Hatebreed, God Forbid, Terror, Evergreen Terrace, and more...

May 4, 2007

St Paul, MN @ Myth

Killswitch Engage, DragonForce, Chimaira, He Is Legend

( holy crap!!!!!)

May 17, 2007

Omaha, NE @ Sokol Underground

Hellogoodbye, Boys Like Girls, The Rocket Summer

June 21, 2007

Omaha, NE @ Sokol Auditorium

Deftones, Dir En Gray, Fall Of Troy

August 30, 2007

Omaha, NE @ Sokol Underground

Comeback Kid, Silverstein

this summer is going to be good.

Run DMC is the king of the swing!

I really really realllllly want these:




AND




those are fakes though.
but yeah
D&G pants and Run DMC shoes
:)

Hey hey, smoke weed everyday.

So, it's really sweet how some stupid sophomore who needs attention threatened to kill 38+ people. I mean, he had a specific list of thirty eight kids. Sweet how since he has had a past of "mental instability" we should feel sorry for him. That is absolutely no excuse. I know a handful of "mentally instable" people, including myelf, and none of them would ever kill one person. I think it is bullshit how although there were supposedly other kids involved, we still have school today. I think it is bullshit how my parents weren't going to make me go, but now they suddenly decided that I'm old enough to face a gunman. I'm pretty sure age has nothing to do with it. If a kid walks into my school with a gun pointed at my face I don't think that because I'm old enough I'd live. Just a thought. I also think it's bullshit how we have "security" today, yet no police. Only our regular "cops". Don't worry, I feel so safe and protected. They're ninety and don't actually do anything at all. I feel so safe, sitting in my econ class, the seat farthest away from the door. Don't worry, the windows aren't breakable and it's a two story drop anyway. Oh, and there's only one door. Hehe, sounds like a game at the fair to me! See how many econ students you can kill because the school cops do nothing and the administration deemed it safe to come to school on a day where our lives are threatened. I think it's bullshit how when I told my mom my life was threatened she said "whatever. you weren't on the list. stop being overdramatic. shut up." Oh really? Because since some of those kids are in my classes, if I am sitting in there and he just starts randomly shooting at us, my life isn't in danger in any way. The bullets will BEND around me just to kill those 38 kids. Sweet how its 4/20 and I feel like getting high. I'm so stressed out and I really really don't want to be at this place.





heheheheheheheh! anyone else find this as hilarious as I do!?



YEAH. ME NEITHER.

The Patron Saint of Liars and Fakes

So I was looking at Val-Air Ballroom's upcoming concerts and some things struck me as funny.

1. LAZERfest 2007
Featuring Hinder; Buckcherry; Papa Roach; Saliva; Fuel; Facecage; Index Case

-okay. I don't even think this needs any explanation.
Lazer has collected the grossest bands they could possibly find. Hinder? Saliva? Seriously. Add Nickelback to that lineup and you'll have all the bad rock genre covered. Except Nickelback fans don't wear bondage. They'd probably get beat up by all the "metal" kids in their Slipknot shirts and mesh. Okay, enough rippin on these kids. I'm sure hardcore is just as bad...except not.

2. SOLD OUT - The Killers

-Hahahahaha. The Killers. Sold Out. I think that is hilarious. I'm not sure if I'd consider them sellouts necessarily, but come on. Look at the drastic change in their image from Hot Fuss to Sam's Town. Brandon Flowers seems like he has an ego as big as their record sales. He's said bands were riding on the coattails of The Killers, that their new album would be the best album of the past twenty years, and that it was cheap for Green Day to have their DVD in England because the kids there didn't know what it meant. He said that The Killers were a much better symbol of America. Mind you they moved to England to get signed. He also got pissed off that Fall Out Boy was getting huge (not Patrick, the band's success) and said that they were hogging the mutual A&R rep. I'm sorry, but that is so much like Panic! At The Disco (love that band dearly, even after all their bullshit). Have your first album out and expect to outsale a band who has been around for YEARS. Fall Out Boy had a split Ep with Project Rocket, FOB's Evening Out With Your Girlfriend, Take This To Your Grave (by far the best album put out by them. Probably one of the best albums in the past seven years) and then they struck it big with mainstream and not so great From Under The Cork Tree. And The Killers? They released Hot Fuss and made, well, quite a fuss about it. I also don't mean to rip on The Killers. I like Hot Fuss and all. But Flower's attitude pisses me off. Hahaha at FOB who were going to name a song "You Can't Spell STAR Without A&R" HAHAHA. just saying.

You can blame me for everything

When it comes to school, I will admit one thing: If I spent as much time doing homework as I do complaining about school I'd be a straight A student. But, I'm a whiner, and school sucks.

Besides that, The Almost album is addicting.

I'd have to say my favorite songs on it are Stop It! and Amazing Because It Is.
Myspace
do it, please.
Cara says it's cute and adorable. Hahah

Speaking of MySpace
...I caved like the Twin Towers
I suck, I know.
And I just made a really bad simile. Really really politically incorrect. Whatever, I'll live. Dubya isn't gonna come to my house and tell me to stop comparing a networking site to a national crisis.



That's what I say to you mister Bush.


Bryce Avary is the future of this country.
B. Avary 4 pr3z

Cause the truth you know is that I have just been hating so many things that I do

"It can be a challenge walking in the world and keeping everything balanced, but I'm trying my hardest to be a light in the darkness."


"So let me get this straight/Cause I have a question/You’re saying he’d listen if I were to speak/Yes that’s what I’m saying, in fact I was just thinking/He’s probably thinking of asking you the same very thing/He wants to say “you’re okay, be my friend/Let me help you and take you out of this lake that you are clearly drowning in/Make me yours and I’ll make your mine”

Truth.

And if I lived until I was 102...

That was a fun day.
I'm graduating before second semester next year.
See ya Valley.

everything it seems i like's a little bit sweeter, a little bit fatter, a little bit harmful for me.

So, if there is one thing I'm sick of, it's people who think they know everything. People who even though they are in no way involved in a situation think they have the right to talk about it knowingly. People who jump in the middle of a conversation when they have zero previous knowledge. People who say things that supposedly people have said, even though they don't really know the person at all. Especially when it is so incredibly unlike something the person would say. Can you say BUTT OUT? Yeah, I guess not. Bullshit I say. I think most people will know what situation people are getting involved in, but I really don't want to discuss it. I think if you know, you know, and there is no point in BLOGGING about it of all things. I have to say though. Matt and Maddie have been the most amazing friends this week. Haha, Mattie and Maddie. Sweet! I've also been BFFs with The Last Kiss soundtrack. Especially Chocolate (Snow Patrol), Star Mile (Joshua Radin), El Salvador (Athlete), Reason Why (Rachel Yamagata), and especially Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk (Rufus Wainwright). All amazing songs.

So I thought of two things.
People need to stop metal-ing in my business.
Yes, I know its meddling.

L0L GIT 0UTT@ MY BU$IN3$$ DR@G0NF0RC3!!!!
...HAAAAAAAAA OKAY.

I also made a nice Mad Lib today.
I guess I channel my anger very creatively.
Here, use it on your friends!


Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha
Ha, ha-ha, ha
Ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha
Ha, ha-ha, ha

[Will.I.Am]
It's funny how a man only thinks about the__________(verb)
You got a real big heart, but I'm looking at your________(noun)
You got real big brains, but I'm looking at your_________(noun)
Girl, there ain't no pain in me looking at your_________(noun)

[PCD]
I don't give a_______(verb)
Keep looking at my_________(noun)
Cause, it don't mean a thing if you're looking at my__________(noun)
Ha, I'm a do my thing while you're playing with your_________(noun)
Ha, ha-ha, ha-ha, ha-ha


sw33t m@d l1bz 1 kn03.
I'll like, probably, like, post, like, the best, like, pussy cat libs. I mean Mad Libs.

Omggggggggg. Anger channeling is st00000pid.
I'm going to take Plant Science next year.
Just so I can have that one cute teacher who I don't want googling his name and my blog coming up on his search...... Oh baby oh baby.

All my friends got flowers in their eyes, but I got none this season.

I love Zach Braff so much.

"I met Donald Trump today. It was odd because I’ve never met a person while holding a bobble-head doll of them. By coincidence, someone had just given it to me. If you ever get the opportunity to meet a person while holding a bobble-head doll of them, you too will notice it is an odd feeling that is better felt than described. He was nice. I told him that I am a big fan of his show. I don’t watch tons of reality TV, but there’s something about that guy… I don’t know- he makes me laugh. And in an odd/superficial way you do learn a little about big business."


Ew
That woman hasn't washed her hair in 11 years. She's wearing a poncho like thing, thus making her a hippy. I'm sure she doesn't like eating animals and smokes lots of dope. Her hair looks really dry and dead to me. Natural oil also damages your hair. Duh. Every four days isn't so bad. But eleven years? And actually that article is two years old, which makes it 13 years. I think she does it for attention personally. Who in their right mind is too lazy to wash their hair, ever? I think it is pathetic and lazy not to have actual hygiene. Gross. Gross. Gross. Gross.

Save me I am swallowed by the guilt of this

these are seriously my favorite things in the world
when i'm pms-ing i crave chicken nuggets like none other.
when i eat these, i'm no longer crabby.
i'd say its a fair trade.

I've decided I also really like my job.
In case you don't know, I'm a telemarketer for State Farm
It's not the most exciting job, but I get paid really really well.
I work with my best friend and we steal fruit snacks from the cupboards, write on rubber bands, and take 20 minute breaks whenever we feel like it.

best job ever

Make this moment last like the deepest sleep you never wanted to leave

a day in the life of lindsey marie adler





"I miss you thiiiiiiiiiis much!"

Don't give up. You're stronger than you know.

The internet says that Seasonal Depression is rare. I have hypochondriaced out and decided I have something along the lines of that. Yesterday I got in my car and it was so nice outside. And I had a tank top on and the sunroof back and The Rocket Summer on. And it felt like the summer, which was depressing in itself, seeing as we still have like nine weeks left of school, but I remembered how I felt this summer. I seriously felt like I loved everything and everything loved me. I had my Pom juice and Pom tea and my Maylene show. Despite my increasingly bad home life last night went incredibly well for me. One of my favorite bands for over a year and I finally saw them. And Breianna Jessica and Shannon and I were the #1 creeps of the night. It's okay. Dallas Taylor is our BFF. We seriously missed Haste The Day to go talk to D-Tay for an hour. And it was awesome because he kept coming up to us, and he is the least intimidating person ever. I'm really glad that we talked to him, because when I got home things weren't so peachy. But I don't really care. I have other things to think about, good things I mean. I love POM juice and the sun.

I just got a message that said "hey Hell has frozen over"

I despise snow. I despise it with every bone in my body. So when I get snowed in my house I'm not too happy. Instead of taking my cabin fever out on anyone I decided to attack the problem itself. The snow. So today on my snow day, where I'm not allowed to drive anywhere, I went outside to throw snow around. You know, punching bag white stuff style. Ha, so I was outside all bundled up...


...and headed outside.
I jumped off a lot of things. It was pretty funny just to stick into the ground like that. I jumped off sheds, which got me called psychotic, but whatever. I forgot about my fear of heights for a good five minutes. sweeeeeeeeet! Then I saw it. It was a snow drift. My neighbor's front yard has a fierce hill, and all the snow had just blown straight. My dream came true. I made a snow fort. Its pretty much the best thing of my life. Its all toasty and warm in there. And I made it to basically fit me. So it's mine! MINE. hahah. My own house! Don't worry. I know how sweet that makes me seem. I'm just an (almost) 17 year old girl lookin for a good time! haha, in the non dirtiest way ever.

MatthewGardiner2: Ok you're a little crazy

I always try to find who I am. Or at least find some sort of reality about myself. Well, thanks to Matt and a lot of alone time this weekend I've come to some conclusions. I am completely happy. Shock, I know. Since I think so negatively and am always complaining. But at the end of the day if I sit down and think about my life, I don't really regret any of it. And it's not just being regret free, it's that I feel like I've made good choices. I end my day with my prayers and a hint of optimism. I'm at a point where I'm kind of losing my belief in everything. Nothing I knew two months ago is the same as it is now. Before I sound too atheistic, let me clarify. Everything except for my faith in Christ. The one thing that I believe more and more in every day. Thats obviously why I'm happy. Because He is the only one who matters anyway. So when I'm sad and whining about how bad my life is, it's all useless. Matt has also deducted that if my life were a picture it'd look like this: me sitting in a lawn chair watching his life go by and me getting mad at Bryan for not giving me enough attention. Hahahahaha, I can't even deny it. It's all so true. So typical of me. So wonderful, I've got to add that to the cat lady rep now. At least I have one good thing out of three to rely on. Even if Matt's life plummets back to the boring state of vegetation it used to be and I get over the attention thing and lose my cat. Not a bad way to live a life, eh?

they're building you up to tear you down.

Kayla and I watched Clarissa Explains it All. There are, however some things she just can not explain. Mainly the things we don't understand. Oh well, we still love her. We also hate Zach Braff in The Last Kiss. That movie made me hate the entire male gender. I hate cheaters. I got a new kitten from Kayla. I named it Brycie, since its a girl. It was great timing. Yesterday Matt and I were talking and he said I'm going to end up alone at age 60 with lots of The Rocket Summer memorabilia. Kind of like a cat lady, but with Bryce instead. He said his girlfriend (wife at age 60 though ahha) would come over for dinner parties and it'd be them, me and a cardboard cutout. It's very true. So adopting a cat and naming it Bryce didn't really help that cat lady motif. Matt just finds it hilarious. Good to know my best friend cares so much. :) I'm starting to turn incredibly apathetic to a lot of things. I'm cynical, whiney and I frankly don't care. But there are definitely things that will bug me so much. Especially when people are so stupid and have no regards for other people's feelings. Especially when they definitely shouldn't be so dumb. I'm also to the point where I don't really trust again. Because once again, just as things start to look up, I find out a good friend tells people things that I tell her. Stupid little things that don't really matter. Which is the weird part, because I'd understand if I told her something important, but it's really not. So why spread it? So much for friendships eh? I'm really sick of being sick. I'm going on two weeks now. And it's getting worse everyday. I wish it was spring or summer. I'm starting to look forward to fall, because once again, I'm apathetic. Thats so vague and doesn't really make any sense, but a few close people should get it. You know, school starts, people leave. People get forgotten about. MMMMMMMM my favorite. In that movie today there was a really good quote. It goes like this: "What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you love. That's what matters. That's the only thing that counts." Life story.

Oh, and happy seven months to me.

Love ya like a fat kid loves cake!

On Sunday Jon was talking about how us Christians need to share our stories. You know what I'm talking about. But he also said that it is kind of difficult to just come out and tell someone, especially when it hasn't come up in a conversation really. And I realized that I have so many great friends, but I don't know their story. And I have so many great friends, but they don't know my story. And I'll be honest, my story is awesome. So this is my invitation, over Blogger, for my friends to tell me whats up. And this is my asking, over Blogger, for my friends to let me tell them whats up. And then my little heart will be as happy as a caterpillar who has just turned into a butterfly. :)

I always do better when you're at the show

This was a great weekend! yay! except the fact that I have no voice and didn't go to school today. I actually stayed home and watched Diff'rent Strokes. Mmmmm. Whatchu talkin about Lindsey!? fhdkslfjdsk. hahfdks. It felt weird to have a really good weekend after having quite a few bad ones. I'm just so negative. Sunday's show was awesome. Solidarity is sweet. I was glad to see them again, I liked them a lot with Stick To Your Guns. But being in Kayla's garage didn't exactly do wonders for my sore throat. And stupid asian zach got my car stuck in the snow. And it was super frustrating. But Bryan and I got into this HILARIOUS argument. It went something like: bryan-"are you mad at me?" me-"no. i thought you were mad at me" "no i'm just mad at the situation" "oh well i can't ever tell if you're pissed at me or the situation" "duh i'm obviously just frustrated with the situation" "yeah well you act the same way either way and it drives me crazy" "i'm a two beat timpani, i'm happy or mad." "yeah well it drives me crazy. you need to fix it" "i'm tellin ya, i'm a two beat timpani" "you suck and confuse me"

ahhaaaah that all took place in like thirty seconds which is the funniest part. and the volume got louder and louder with both of us trying to win. I thought kayla and Danielle were going to pee their pants it was so funny.

Oh so I signed up for this lost thing
doooo it
www.lost.eu/1fc07

and I miss bre. story of my life
.
cooooool ames life.
cooooool summer life.
cooooool keep and confess life.
cooooool water fight life.
cooooool prison cuddling (hahahfdhsklfjds)
cooooool last day of school life.
cooooool sophomore life.
cooooool zach life. (haha. thats how you sum up bre and i)

Cause you're there when you talk and you're there not to stop and you're with me around the clock

I've come to realize I'm very cynical.

This year, I'm lightning up on ole Saint V.

I don't hate it! For one, I didn't have to go to the STUPID dance. I dislike school dances sometimes. Second, Matt and I went on a valentines shopping extravaganza adventure. Imagine this: my best friend, The Rocket Summer, and v-day gifts. Matt got his girlfriend a GIANT stuffed tiger, hahahahahahah. Today I fought with my parents so I was being a little piss-ant. But Bryan picked me up from school around 10 (I had three hours off in the middle of my day... suck) and luckily I was a little refreshed from my nap (AKA AP Chemistry). So that was a good like break in my day, and flowers never hurt! After school we went to Target and his brother got a Wii and then we went out to dinner with his parents.

For cereal, I didn't do too badly this year.

ALRIGHHHHHHHHHT.

We're going down with the ship!

Two years later I have found a new favorite book. The Perks Of Being A Wallflower is replaced! By none other than The Catcher In The Rye. Same basis really, but Catcher is much more timeless. I feel odd that Holden Caulfield, a character from the 1940's can be so much like I am in the 2000's. Bad grades, lying to his parents, he's pretty much the love of my life. Although I say that about Bryce Avary, Jude Law, and probably many other people, he's on the list. And I'd say he's in good company. My Creative Writing 2 teacher (ugh) said that not many people like Catcher anymore and once again, I'm the lone soldier in that class. How many times do I have to be told I have a weird perspective, seriously! The feeling I get when realizing there are other people like me, and there have been for sixty years is very similar to the feeling of listening to After The Burial while doing homework. You just don't feel so alone and you kind of want to dance. And who doesn't like happiness and dancing!? I really hope most people have read Catcher, and I'm going to read Sidharrtha (or however you spell it) next, and my CW2 teacher says thats a good one for me, but what does she know. Yes, I'm a little angry about that class, hahah.

My pain is mine. It's become my friend with time. Chia-like, it grows.

So having lunch with a friend today (who reads this), I managed to do two things. Destroy a good amount of cream cheese nervously poking it with a knife, and to hear things I didn't want to know but at the same time want to know. And it sucks, I hate a lot of things right now, and I'm nonstop listening to The Rocket Summer. But there are just some things I guess I have no control over. And no matter how much I try, how I do my hair, or how I spend my weekends it doesn't matter. Because people will act the way they want to, and I can't change that. I'm certainly not feeling 100% about things at the moment, but I'm not going to sit around and be sad. It just sucks. But I guess what happens happens, and I have to appreciate what I have.

well, thats the end of my non-specific not helpful rant.

edit:
Today I really love/need
-Ephesians
-Matt Gardiner
-sleep
-Catcher In The Rye