"We used to be pussweeds, but now we're metal!"

There's something to be said about new starts. Two days into the new semester I feel fabulous. I have a free period, and I have a feeling that even if I don't do my homework in it, a break will be nice opposed to a class. I have a feeling that will help me out a lot. It also is great timing. Everything in my life is changing a lot, and I think starting new is exactly what I need. I'm starting to come to terms with why things are the way they are. I understand the reasons I'm friends with certain people, and not friends with certain. I understand why I make certain choices and I understand why God puts me in situations that may not be fun. After realizing all of this, I've realized I'm a spoiled brat and I'm slightly (okay, a lot) on the selfish side. And as much as I don't want to change, I need to at some point. My counselor says she thinks I think things through very well and put things together nicely. I am starting to be more optimistic and open minded and understanding. And I don't know why. All I know is the last few weeks of the last semester I was super stressed out. I had to take tests over material I hadn't learned at all. A whole semester of learning. And with things going on with friends, and future planning. Oy. And to top it off, my parents were all pissy with me, mainly because of my grades. But I still had it easy. I should have done my work from the beginning. I understand that. But I have a whole 180 days to do that now. To prove that I can accomplish something. If I don't have school stressing me out, everything is easier. I don't get so uptight and rude and I get along with my parents. Which is one less thing for me to complain about. So pretty much I'm super psyched for this semester. I'm psyched to get everything back on track. And to top it off, I'm seeing friends who I didn't see at all this summer or first semester. People who have been great friends for me since forever. And with the Pella show Friday, and the HOB show Saturday, this weekend is booked and I'm ready!